Exhausted
My dad had stroke last week, was in hospital, and I didn’t even know about it until yesterday. My mom sounded surprisingly so calm when I called her yesterday, until I asked her how everything was back home. I was a bit upset because nobody told me what happened. My mom told me that my dad didn’t want anybody to tell me. For once in a very long time I realized how significant the distance between me and my family.
It was late, and I was very tired after a long day at school when I talked to my mom. I knew I had to be strong… or at least sound like it… for her. That is the only thing I can do now. If only I didn’t have so much going on here now… I would fly back home immediately.
I woke up in this morning feeling awful and alone. I surprised J with a phone call and just poured out everything I felt that very moment. I did whatever I had to do today feeling exhausted. Just so exhausted….
For J, JM, and Bumble Bee… thank you for listening my feelings and thoughts today.
